Life's Like That...!!!

HE will keep testing you from time to time and you will see lots of UP's and DOWN's......try to never give up, you will definitely succeed in HIS test.....

Isn't time Running Out

Saturday, October 14, 2017

Weekend Morning Rush-Hour...!!

It's Saturday.

It's not even 9 in the morning. I'm yet again standing on my terrace. Wind has a slight chill in it. Sun has not exactly shown properly in days. Although it is trying it's best to come out of clouds as if it's tired of hiding behind but looks like clouds are winning again.

However, I see a rush outside. People are already running for their work. Is it work? I doubt. Some might have work but others are on their way to resolve the errands which normally they won't get time to do on weekdays. I see lot of bikes and loaders passing by the road next to our house. With all such lifestyle, people are getting less and less sensitive with every passing day. Something in all this reminded of these lines I heard sometime back:

There's a rhythm in rush these days
Where the lights don't move and the colors don't fade
Leaves you empty with nothing but dreams
In a world gone shallow
In a world gone lean

Beautiful lines, right?

Anyway, I see that in my society people are already drying clothes in their balcony. I think it’s better to do it early. Lately the rains are pretty consistent starting early in the evening.


It started drizzling suddenly...

I was standing out on my terrace and saw these strangely beautiful shades, as if they're trying to tell some story.

There was a strange, unsettling sound of traffic from the road next to the house. Bikers speeding up to reach their destination and avoid getting drenched after days’ work. Yet amidst these noises of bikes and four-wheelers, rain still slowly managed to over shadow every noise that could reach any ear...then there was a sudden sense of peace which you'll feel if you continue to stand out there and try to experience it...

It was beautiful...!!

Sunday, August 27, 2017


**** Human Brain acts strangely. I was just sitting and admiring rain on my bean-bag, when these lines clicked me. I'm not a musician, so couldn't describe the random tune which I was humming, but then I ended up writing these. Well, I think this random one deserves to be dedicated to my future partner. (TO WHOM-SO-EVER IT MAY CONCERN). ****

I wanna be with you;
Sitting on a bean bag, 
Next to you.

Sipping hot coffee,
In rainy weather, 
Next to you.

If you're watching some movie,
I wanna watch it,
Sitting next to you.

If you're reading some book,
Then I'll just sit,
And write one on you.

Be they hard times or not,
I wanna be with you, 
Next to you.

Sharing each and every moment
With YOU. 

PS: Thanks to Bangalore rains due to which I was in a house arrest today admiring the beautiful weather.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Escape Character..!!

Tired and exhausted,
    Sitting by the road.
Lost in the thoughts,
    Too many impulses about to overload.

Day dreaming all the events,
    While lorries rumbled down the lane.
A stone launched from under the tyre,
    Sudden conscience was regained but definitely with pain.

    Not the best way to describe it.
It was just the thought to run away,
    Into a world that’s known a little bit.

    Yes, the surroundings were agnostic.
Though it gave a desire to escape,
    To be a character in a reality that’s realistic.

Monday, January 23, 2017

Mirrored Spaces..!!

Lonely and restricted,
    That's what it may appear.
Hollow and shallow,
    Yeah, deep within for him it was creepier.

They kept a mirror all around,
    It scared him a bit.
He fell into the thoughts,
    "For the world around him, is he a fit?"

Every second millions of words,
    Came to his mind.
When he tried to pen them down,
    None were so kind.

Worried and bothered,
    About what others might think.
When he was in the crowd,
    Scared, he wasn't exactly sure even how to blink.

People in the surrounding made him feel awkward,
    While he just tried to figure out some link.
However, there were few who made him feel "normal",
    Together with them, in random thoughts, he liked to sink.

Though most of the time his life to him felt obscure,
    His days ended sometimes with crying eyes.
But thanks to those awkwardly normal souls,
    'coz with them he won't have to worry about those prying eyes.

PS: Wrote this long time back as a task where I was asked to look into the mirror and write whatever come to my mind in 15min.

Thursday, December 29, 2016

A Beautiful Message to end 2016..!!

Everyone dies alone;
If you meant something to someone;
If you helped someone;
If you loved someone;
If even a single person remembers you;
Then maybe you never really die
and maybe


PS: I'm pretty sure those who used to follow the TV series: Person of Interest must be smiling right now.

Monday, October 31, 2016

The Theory of Being Everything..!!

"There’s nothing more intimate in life than simply being understood." 
~ Brad Meltzer

Honestly, the bits and pieces of this post is in my diary and notepad for few weeks now. And still when I started to write it here, then also I'm not sure what this post is about. I think maybe if I start writing, it might help me clear out things.

I understand that everyone has their secrets.
Everyone has a dark side of them, a dark passenger, who always accompanies them.
Everyone has a chapter in their life that they don't read aloud.

I too have some of them. I too have a dark passenger whom I like to keep in check. But lately this companion of mine has gone rogue. I didn't let it hurt anyone else, so now it's after me. Well, I think it needs me to speak out. But the biggest problem with me is I don't know how to stand and speak even if something wrong is going on with me. I end up being quiet. Another thing I don't understand is: if someone is behaving in a certain manner, why is he/she behaving that way? The extent to which I'm okay in interpreting complex equations and formulae, you just negate it, and I'm equally bad at interpreting human behavior. Well, at the end of the day, I think I'm human only and not an alien; also I need to interact with others to survive but I'm not sure how. I've always faced difficulty in going and talking to people, basically that has effected my performance everywhere, be it in interviews or interactions with friends. My friends and family think either I'm a stupid or I'm an arrogant guy who doesn't care about what others think. Well, in the matter of fact, I do care and most of the time, even my parents curse me. They even curse me for my expenditure, but I'll be spending just to roam around and meet my friends in the hope that I find someone who'll understand me. However, this problem has mine have always been there. Earlier I was considered just a reserved kid who is scared of interacting with elders, but now, though my behavior is same, the situation is different and it matters.

The year 2016 has been the worst for me lately. Lot many things have happened and are happening. Earlier I was just a student who always used to spend his life in lab or with books. But now, now I'm part of this vicious cycle of life where I have to earn my living and interact with people. That has never been the real me. My parents say that I'm completely normal but no, I fake the interactions with people around me. I just repeat the dialogues, which I've overheard over the past few years from everyone in different situations, when it comes to interacting with someone. Yes, it's just recorded in my mind for me and I simply replay. Yeah, I've few friends, who I know that they understand me(or maybe I feel so). But life is getting weird lately. I know they can't stick with me all the time and since past one year I'm in a weird state of mind. Till the time I was student, I knew how to handle problems. Now I'm no more a student and I don't know how to handle real life situations. I try fitting it in patterns hoping to understand and predict the outcomes of other upcoming situations based on past events but I've failed every single time. Obviously the blame comes on me that I'm not at all understanding.

I don't know whom to talk to and even sometimes I get to talk to someone, but then I don't know what to talk. By the time I realize, it gets too late. Yes, every single time it gets too late. Stephen King once said:

“The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them — words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller but for want of an understanding ear.”

Yes, "the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller but for want of an understanding ear." I dunno whom to go and talk to, but lately I'm just hoping to find an understanding ear who lets me give a chance to express myself. Yes, I need to express myself. Just once, with a feeling of comfort. I don't want any lecture on what to do, just for once, no lecture. Again, there is this problem of me not being able to express to everyone. That's why I write and don't talk. But, honestly, it has always been hard to find someone like that, at least for me it is hard. That's why I'm posting this, requesting not to poke me and judge me. I'm a weirdo who panics easily and who's waiting once to be understood, just once. Though I try, but believe me it's frustrating because I can't be everything and this theory of being everything is killing me. As a result, loss of focus in everything.

PS: Once a close friend asked me not to stop myself from letting the thoughts flow. Hence, after long thought, I'm publishing it here.

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